Personal Meyland

I know you lie to me The same way I do it to myself We look for an easy path to cover our steps We fear the fact of a possible change And all the new things that can bring. My hands are tied with you I can't say I know you as well as I'd like That way I cannot feel more things Others than physical atraction And maybe a deeply sensation of curiosity. You know you're difficult and you can pretend Being a cunt or vain, getting an armor around you, But at some point you opened yourself to me You showed me how you really were And that's scary and maybe impulsive To somebody you trusted at that moment. Did I dump your trust? Did I go to far? Did I ask for to much? I need to reinvent us. Even if in my head I still see you The way you were and I get attached To an ilussion of the past That might not come back again. What if we just hurt us tonight? What if we just let ourselves have fun? Because there's no way it will stay neat. We'll get

Sick of playing to be chased or the chaser Tired of seeing how your mood changes Depending on my actions And your desitions are so weak That could be broken in a second Like the million promises you did not care Taking to a better place and changing yourself. No, even if you try to impress me Even if you change your ways I deal with you knowing you won't change, Assuring in my head I should not expect change. Because I'm tired to wait for actions Listening to easy compliments Holding heartless ideas after all. Because you cannot see me ignoring you, me being around different people that brings more to a this lost soul that wants something new. You're not that person even if you tried. We both know nothing will change enough. And I am still hitting myself against the wall For being that stupid person Who believes in drastic changes When are less than subtles and tasteless Not enough to fill me up but just with anger. And still you make it easy